Friday, 30 May 2014

A Long Journey Home

I wonder how many of you out there believe or take an interest in numerology. It is said that each number carries a certain vibration. The year 2014 adds up to the number 7. The number 7 is connected with spirituality. Thus 2014 is the Year of the Divine and a good year for spiritual pursuits

I have been attending a spiritual course since  last August. In March this year,  I went for a 11 day retreat in Nepal. This was followed by another retreat in India in April.  I have indeed felt a shift in my perceptions ever since I embarked on this course. I feel I am getting closer yet still quite far away from achieving the enlightened understanding and peace with life.

I have been searching ever since I was a child. Unbeknownst to me,  I was deeply troubled by the many unanswered questions within me and the dualities of this world  The difficulties in my life have been the sparks which set me on this journey to search for the truth. It is a journey which I am only beginning to  appreciate. I sought  achievements, looked to  people, been to faraway places and  experimented with religions. What was it for? Ultimately, it was to fill the void within. It is this void which drives the search.

I have looked so much to the externals. Yet, what was it that made me assume I could find it from the external world? I didn't even question this illogical logic. And I am certain that I am not the only one to have walked down this mistaken road. We have been brought up to trust others and to look for the answers externally, first from  our parents, then our teachers and society. Without being conscious of it, we have been conditioned to seek love, approval and validation from external sources. And it is a path we pursue till we suffer disappointment after disappointment. One fine day, when we finally get the message, we understand that this long journey we have sent ourselves on, only leads back to home.

This home resides within ourselves.


  1. Hi CF,
    I am Allen Lai, I chanced upon your site via reading the late Mr Chang's blog. Thank you for starting to post again. I find your articles interesting and inspiring.
    I am also a cancer survivor and manage my personal site called
    I am not a good writer as I lack focus and depth in my sharing.
    Please continue the good work for our learning and focus.
    Thank you and take care.
    Allen Lai

  2. Dear Allen,

    Thank you for reading my blog and leaving your kind comments. It is nice to "meet" readers like yourself. Your blog is very informative. Life is full of surprises, some easy and some challenging. It takes alot of strength and courage to overcome and survive any disease, especially the big C. For that, I congratulate you. Also, your good intentions in using your time and energy to help others. Keep up the good work!. May God bless you.

  3. Hi CF,
    Good to see you blogging again.. it sure is a long time since you last wrote - miss your inspirational articles. Keep blogging and take care.